Today after returning my 5th foster pup (he will hopefully be a super seeing-eye dog)
I did a on-the-spur-of-the-moment trip to see our eldest son. In his 7 years of education I have not once made the trip on my own. My confidence to drive the 80 miles x 2 has been non-existent and I didn't think I could do it. A toll road part of the way and then a secondary road as I became overwhelmed with the high speeds and rush hour helped break up my anxiety. (it's not so much the speeds, it's the trucks).
He has been through some terribly difficult times since he started university and my worry has been endless. I relaxed. We relaxed. We had dinner together and a lovely dark roast coffee gave me some extra energy. The waitress was perfect. We shared dessert.
I was scared to drive home and we called a local B&B to see if there was any availability (no luck). I decided to do the drive. I guess that's what's called "second wind". Still hard to believe that I accomplished something that so many people do on a daily basis. I sure don't want to do that kind of driving everyday, it's exhausting,but I am very pleased I did it today. It was a good confidence booster.
That spouse has already removed the dog gates. Weird here without pup. Does that mean I am expected to sit with him watching TV for hours and hours after dinner? NOT A CHANCE.
|reflection of a black lab (who patiently waits) at his water bowl which is scattered with blueberries|